I want to start by telling you a short personal story so that you can gather a better understanding of what I mean when I say your wounded inner child. Some time ago my partner told me at the very last minute that he was to attend an event. I was hurt with the thoughts of ‘why didn’t he invite me?’ and all of the assumptions running wild in my head. I was so angry, responding in quite a childlike ‘oh fine’ sort of sense. I went on to tell him not to ever ask me to attend anything with him again and I emotionally withdrew from him for a couple of days. I was enraged.
My partner incredibly confused said numerous times ‘I didn’t think that you would want to come’.
Captain hindsight popping in here for a moment now, It was more than understandable that he didn’t think I would want to go with him. I hate such social events. And he also knows that I often felt resentful when asked because I have felt obligated. The poor guy couldn’t do right for doing wrong.
In addition, I must add, on reflection, in honesty, I would have said no. I would have bloody hated it. Did I think all of that through at the time?
Big fat no.
That part of me that had never healed was desperate to belong, to be accepted, to feel apart of.
At that moment my old fears of rejection and abandonment were triggered and I reacted in an emotionally immature and some may say, irrational way.
It’s a subconscious part of us in which every experience, feeling, fear, and conclusion that we drew about ourselves as a child resides.
I want you to bear something in mind for a moment. As an adult, we are able to take all things into consideration surrounding any particular event or situation. As a child, we don’t have the capacity to do so. Therefore we tend to view ourselves as the center of the earth. All that goes on around us is because of us for example. We are also entirely reliant on our caregivers. They are like Gods to us, infallible. So when they get something wrong, they of course aren’t wrong. We are.
Now during my coaching sessions, many people say ‘I had a good childhood’ and that may well be the case. This isn’t to say that your parents were neglectful or abusive in any way. The way in which they have parented and shown up as a parent still bears influence. For example, if you had a parent who was emotionally/physically distracted due to work pressures, that has an impact. Then of course there are those of us who experience the neglect and abuse that I have noted in the image to the right.
So how do you know that you have unhealed wounds from childhood? I have popped a shortlist together to the left however this list is by no means exhaustive. I have a long list within the YouTube Inner Child workshop at the bottom of this post.
But for a moment consider :
Do you struggle to communicate honestly, respectfully, and productively?
Do you worry about what others think of you to the point in which the way you live your life is very much determined by it?
Do you feel as though you can be who you authentically are with the people in your life?
Do you allow yourself to feel?
Do you feel as though you belong?
Have you struggled with addiction, we often consider only drink and drugs but I am talking anything, food, shopping, obsessing over one hobby after another.
Do you work too much and/or put too much value on things.
Do you feel a need to achieve and prove yourself?
So how do we go about healing?
First and foremost, bring your inner wounded child into your awareness. Become aware of your natural reactions and journal it out. Now I know that you may not be a fan of writing stuff out in which case I recommend the Otter app (you speak into it and it writes for you).
Note how you are feeling, what emotions are coming up for you, how are you feeling in your physical body, what fears are behind what is coming up for you, does the situation bring anything to mind? All of it, whatever comes freely to mind, write it out.
The key to healing is integrating the inner child. Allowing that part of you to feel seen, heard, understood, supported, and nurtured.
I have popped some examples in the image to the right.
- Start working on your inner critic. When you recognise the negative inner dialogue running rampant in your mind become mindful. Quiz it, question the truthfulness (I have a whole other video that discusses this on this on YouTube here)
- Write a letter to your inner child. This needs to come from you but for some ideas, write about how you are in a different situation now, you are here to listen, you are going to support her now, you are safe now.
- Reparent. Give yourself what you needed but didn’t receive as a child.
- Cord-cutting ceremony. Where needed, this is the energetic cutting of emotional ties.
- Soul retrieval. A shamanic term that refers to reintegrating lost soul parts back into you to create healing
- Journaling. As mentioned before.
- Root chakra healing.
- The inner child healing toolkit. My very own programme covering all aspects in depth.
- Work 1-1 with myself a coach or a therapist
When I do my weekly card pull in my free group there is always a message regarding intuition and I understand why.
Many of us in the group have learned not to trust our intuition, not to tune into it, not to value it.
I will give you an example. When you experience a domineering parent or an abusive guardian, your sense of ‘we are just as important as anyone else’ and ‘my opinion matters’ is overridden. Low self-esteem is the result.
‘I am not as worthy as others.’ You subconsciously tell yourself.
There are many other circumstances in which you will adopt this belief in childhood.
A belief that you genuinely believe to be true that over time you pass as fact.
You ignore your own internal navigation system time and time again because you have come to believe that you aren’t reliable or trustworthy. Others know better.